In a few days, we will be pulling out of the driveway of the first home we ever owned in the only state I’ve ever lived in to drive 18 hours west for our new home in Utah.
It feels very surreal, even though I’ve had a few months to process it. I can’t believe Wade has already been there for two months, and I also can’t believe how everything has fallen into place.
People have had a lot of questions for me with this move, and I feel like there are a few things I want you to know about it.
First – I’m excited!
Yes, I am absolutely devastated to leave my friends and family. I know how terribly I am going to miss them, because they mean the world to me. I know there will be days I will want to fly back just to hug some necks. I know it won’t always be a vacation and reality will set in and some days will be hard.
But I’m still pretty ecstatic. There are so many places I cannot wait to explore. So many things I want to try now that I’ll have regular access. So many hikes to be had, mountains to see, people to meet. Is it a little terrifying? Sure. But at almost 31 years old, I’m eager for the challenge. I know it will bring growth and opportunity and new experiences that I never imagined, and I can’t wait to learn what that feels like. Plus I get to do it all with my very best friend, and truly, I can’t think of a bigger blessing.
Second – A calling.
I wrote a blog post about a year ago that I never published because it felt too raw and scary. I started that post with the following:
“Have you ever experienced a stirring in your soul? The kind that tells you there’s more? More you should be doing? More you should be learning? More you should be seeing and experiencing? More you should be helping? I’ve been feeling it for a while now. It’s hard to say how long – I think a part of me has known it for several years, but it’s only made its way to the surface in the last couple. I haven’t yet figured out where it’s taking me, but I feel that something is on the horizon.”
I felt this move coming. I felt God calling us to do something different. In fact, this is one of the most clearly God-directed paths I’ve ever felt led down. The way things just sort of happened. The way it all fell into place. The fact that even though I’d never been to Utah, and that we’d never even considered Salt Lake as a place we’d live someday, but when the opportunity arose it somehow just made sense, made it very clear that this was bigger than us.
I’ve always wanted to go, to explore, to do and to see, but I’ve always been afraid and nervous and unsure. It feels different now. I truly believe that God has put this all in motion and I sincerely cannot wait to see what he has in store for us.
I know this feels big, really big to me, but I also know people move across the world every day, and that sometimes you have to do big things to do big things.
Oklahoma – I might be moving out, but you’re not getting rid of me. One of the good things about being alive right now (and sometimes the good things are hard to find), is technology. Hard to believe, but I can still blog from Utah! And FaceTime, and text and call and email and Instagram. I hate to break it to you, but if you think I’m disappearing, you’re thoroughly mistaken. Brace yourselves – it’s only going to get worse from here…
If you’re the praying kind, I’d appreciate your prayers for a safe trip out west, and mostly for my sanity during 18 hours in the car with our pup following Wade in the Uhaul. (Yay for audio books!)
If you’re not the praying kind, I’d appreciate your good vibes for a smooth transition!
Thanks for all of the above and plan on hearing from me soon. For now, “the mountains are calling and I must go.”
P.S. I know many of you are wondering, “But how do I send Hayley a birthday card in two weeks?! I need their new (temporary) address!!” No need to fret, just shoot me a message and I’ll hook you up! 😉