My emotions (read: my sanity?) are all over the place these days. Anybody else?
I was plenty emotional pre-pregnancy and pre-COVID, but y’all, it’s just next level now. One day, I’m feeling upbeat and positive – finding joy in all the little things, feeling extra grateful for everything (is there a better feeling in the world than your baby kicking? Hard to imagine). The very next day (or heck, sometimes hour), I’m falling apart or completely dysfunctional. But I know I’m not alone in this totally unpredictable time (and hormonal body), so I find solace in that and allow myself to feel all the feelings. And perhaps I’m feeling extra feelings this week, because it’s such an important week for me and for much of the world.
This week is Holy Week. The days recognizing Jesus’ final days on earth, leading up to His crucifixion on the cross, and ultimately His resurrection on Easter Sunday.
Easter is hands down my favorite holiday. Especially since my own baptism four years ago. It’s so full of meaning and ritual and gratitude. I love the entire season of Lent each year and the extra boost it gives me for practicing gratitude each day, for better loving others and for drawing nearer to the Lord in these days leading up to Easter.
This year is obviously very different. There’s no going to our church to sit in quiet adoration. No time spent in the pews kneeling for Stations of the Cross. No physical community with whom to share the Good Friday service. And no fancy outfits and big hats in churches everywhere to celebrate a risen Savior.
But it’s also not so different. Because now more than ever, we’re all so unbelievably connected in this worldwide experience. So, while we won’t be shaking hands and sharing hugs in person, we’re still able to worship, praise and give thanks to Jesus for His ultimate sacrifice to save us from our sins. The most beautiful gift.
While it won’t be the same, as the tables we gather around will be smaller than usual, and the settings we pray in will look different, our God remains the same yesterday, today and always.
I encourage you to follow your traditions this week. Make time for prayer and worship. Prepare a beautiful meal with your family to celebrate the risen Lord. Watch your church service online, maybe even wearing your best dress and big hat. Keep the focus on Jesus and recognize the gifts in your life – that every blessing comes straight from He who loves you so much that He gave His life for you.
I get chills when I dive into the story, when I hear it read aloud, when I imagine witnessing it in person. It’s everything to me. So, this week, amid a continued global pandemic with no real end in sight, I choose to fix my eyes on His story, and trust that Jesus is working in all this. I think if you can’t see it, it’s because you’re choosing not to. The generosity, kindness, creativity, and overwhelming compassion of others has been abundantly evident to me in this, and I choose to continue seeking the good (even on, especially on, the hard days).
May you all have a blessed Holy Week and know that I’m praying for each of you in these trying times!
Some resources if you’re looking for ways to observe Holy Week:
Word on Fire YouTube Channel: https://www.youtube.com/user/wordonfirevideo
- April 9: Holy Thursday Mass of the Lord’s Supper: 6 p.m. Pacific Time
- April 10: Friday of the Passion of the Lord (Good Friday): 3 p.m. Pacific Time
- April 12: Sunday of the Resurrection (Easter): 9 a.m. Pacific Time
Stations of the Cross: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pJNjtA-Awb4
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